Long Night

It's going to be another late for me, working on music stuff - contacting venues, updating the website, researching printers for my new flyers, etc. Will you be joining me? AIM: jaymathesmusic

Thoughts on Who I Am

I thought I'd share with you a message that I sent to one of my newest YouTube subscribers. She was asking me about my background in music, how I got started, and how I got in to music. I think my message came off as a little angry, though that wasn't the case at all. I just wanted to clearly convey that - at least for me - a none-music "job" was never an option:

No! Of course I didn't just decide to "go in to music"!!! I feel in my bones that I was created to write. I can't help but do it, because it's a part of the fabric of who I was made to be. Some people think it's weird when I talk about it like this, but I feel that writing songs is as necessary to me as breath itself.

I've been writing music since I was a little kid, and I've been given opportunities to hone that gift. The end goal? Full-time music - recording, performing, and writing. How close am I? Probably not very, but I'm chasing the dream none-the-less.

I'm putting all of my eggs in to one basket, and everybody I know knows it, too. I have a new record coming out (hopefully soon) with my band, called The City (http://thecitymusic.com)

So thanks for listening! You're a part of turning my dream in to substance.

-Jay

Staying Calm: It's Only a Game

My brother plays on the varsity basketball team at Glenbard East High School. He's a guard, in case you were wondering. After attending nearly all of his weekend games this past season, I can honestly say that I get more heated while watching his games than while doing just about anything else. I swear, it's probably one of the most stressful things in my life!

Multiple times this season I have unsuccessfully restrained myself from being one of those obnoxious fans who yells at the refs about this or that call. Tonight - senior night - I approached the game with a greater resolve to stay calm, collected, and in my seat. Failure.

(I stood up after a player on Naperville North fouled out - their best player - and I waved him goodbye, as he made his way to the bench. No yelling, I should add.)

This was the last time that my brother dressed for basketball on his home court. This was also the only game this season that he fouled out - and this even before reaching the 2-minute mark, in the fourth quarter.

Playing that last game has to be tough. It's something that I've never experienced, though. Trying to objectify it, as an outsider, I hope that these experiences in life remind kids (and me) that few things last forever in this world, and it's stupid to waste our time on the things that don't. We are meant to live in the midst of the eternal reality - that there is more to life than what meets the eye.

After tonight, my challenge to myself is to live with more awareness about the longevity of the work that I'm doing - whether it be washing a few dishes or trading futures.

And to you, my question is: what *does* matter in this life?

Retooling My Live Show

I finally sat down yesterday with all of my new gear and began the massive task of retooling my entire live show to incorporate sampling and looping with my iMac. Wow, this is a huge task, and I definitely have my hands full. I spent five complete hours working with a software program called Mainstage, to set up my screen layout and start to dig in to some sounds and effects. I'm excited by the potential, but terrified by the thought of delegating control of my live show to a computer. I think Apple's software is finally up to the task, and to task we shall take it.

Life Gets a Little More Complicated - Or is it Less?

I've been told - multiple times today - that I need to "practice what I preach", as they say. I've always told people - mostly young people - that they have to dream big and follow those dreams until the end - either until they achieve them or until they die trying. I nuance the idea a bit more, but that's the gist of it.

Today, I had to tell a bunch of people that I will be spending a lot more time working on my music in the coming months, and that I won't have a lot of extra time to spend with them. They all understood, and wished me the best, but it's still hard to say "no" to them - especially when you've said "yes" for so long.

Today, I have begun the difficult process of radically changing my normal behavior in order to pursue a single goal with undivided devotion. This is the end and the beginning - of something bigger than I am. And I invite you along for the ride. Won't you join me?

What are your dreams? What is your vision? What is holding you back, keeping you from pursuing that one thing that you want? Well, I have to say, at least for myself, that the one thing I want is actually, really the sum of three or four things. I believe they all work toward the same ends.

Need I Say Anything at All?

Balance

The word of the day is "balance". Balance means that you spend an adequate amount of time each day doing the things that you need to do. For me this week, I'm learning how to live a more "balance-centered" life. Writing music every day. Practicing music every day. Spending time on the things that matter most - every day.

What matters most to you? And what do you wish you had more time to do? Let's challenge each other to make changes in our daily habits to better prioritize our terrestrial existence. Let me know how *I* can help *you*.